Assorted Sundry

Split personalities

Wanted you to love me
so I could be all that I could be.
Became what you needed
in desperate hopes of reciprocity.
So I hung onto your every word
like a precious memory.
And when I would drink too much
it was of you I would speak.
I even made a home for you,
wont you come lay your head beside me?

We didn’t end like I wanted
So I kicked my own ass,
Thinking ‘I should have tried harder’
Screaming for you in vain
Baby I sang your name
like it was my Alma mater
I got angry
I started throwing things and breaking glass
and all I got was hotter

2 years later and here I am,
Still confused by your duality
I beg to see you
hoping we make it through
While I sit alone,
Stewing in my own sentimentality


Nina

Who knows where the time goes?
You were loving me but now it’s not so.
Praised your name in my usual bravado
Your response just aint the same.
You told me I was sweet though
Now I’m trying to figure out
Where the time goes.

When we hugged and kissed
I knew the one thing you’d ask is:
why do I always taste of sadness.
I said:
Its what happens to joy when your heart isn’t managed.
(Knowing love gives one the advantage)

Seems we just reached our peak
Now were falling down a slippery slope
You’re ignoring the words I speak
I should give you up
Let you go
I know its time to head home
So who knows where the time goes?

I was enamored with you
But I see it aint that deep
What am I to do?
When I’m a promise you won’t keep
Now I’ve got the ‘Billie blues’
My heart has sprung a leak.
Who knows where the time goes?

I guessed you figured me out…
Seen all the best parts there are to see
So what’s all this distance about?
This just can’t be…
I sit here trying to figure him out
but I’m lost in his mystery.
Baby, who knows where the time goes?
When it takes you from me


End of an era

Left upon the valley floor
My wayward soul is fleeing
Too many tempest winter nights
Now my roots have no meaning
So how should I know
When it’s time for me to grow?
The soil has turned to sand
And all the nutrients are leaving
But oh do they know
My weary body is still feeding?
Far across the starry night
A thirsty gust carries the seedlings
But how could they know where to go?
As I watch my hope become fleeting
Tempered flame can’t warm this heart
It just flickers about
I’ve been broken down piece by part
So now the endeavor carries no clout
Left upon the valley floor
My wayward time is fleeing


Temptation from lesser deities

I have searched throughout history
I have toiled over endless faces
Searching for eyes that will meet my own
Encountered apparent dangers
Still, no cave as my home.
My skin is thirsty
All its tissue has folded
Im puff pastry Flaky
My lips are chapped
From living with a forked tongue
My words aren’t enigmatic
But I only think in ab stracts
Flashes of color
Opaque windows
Demons with no shape
Luminescent Mephistopheles promises trinkets
Like greasy burger wrappers
But to I who have nothing
Its tomorrow’s news received behind the times

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Since that night, Joel.

I want to wrap you up in vanilla linens
and embrace you.
I want for our lips to never part,
Except to flash a smile
I want to leave you with a feeling on Monday
That will last you years from Sunday
I want a little sugar in my bowl
That’s as sweet as your eyes

What I want
is you.