another laugh

I Went home
& opened the windows
my apartment was stuffy
& I was sweaty
From my bike ride home.

My plants were looking limp
&needed some watering
So I wiped my brow &
Gave them some water

I remembered a joke
But my house was empty
So it faded before I could
Share it.

But I didn’t care really
Cause my gums were tender
and I was still sober
so I reached for a high
and my gums started bleeding
and my mind went wondering
while I stood over the sink
spitting up rust flavored plasma
in my stuffy apartment
where the plants were just watered
but they still looked limp
so I thought I must be projecting
my condition to the plants.

But I remembered my joke
And laughed alone
Though I looked like a vampire –
blood pooling on the perimeter of my
Canines.
& I laughed alone
Because I was high
& am always amused,
When things take a turn
For the worse
Hoping for a sign of the end.