Old Friend

I've always been good at letting go;

its the forgetting that I'm having trouble with.

First I count the money,

look over my merchandise

Then count my debts, my responsibilities.

Which card has the lower interest rate... how will this affect my credit score?

What exactly does a home lender look for?

Should I start the dinner first or feed the dog?

Has the laundry been folded?

Shit!

Did I forget the fabric softner?

I hope the lettuce hasn’t spoiled;
I don’t have time to go to the store.

The Gardner blew dirt all over my patio yesterday

I spent this morning washing off ceramic pots and the cement slab,

I wonder how he's doing.

letting go of peet moss, erasing snail trails and feeling guilty
for removing their mark on my property.

Is there something I’m forgetting?

I know I can’t talk to him,

It’s silly for me to want to  but… I wonder

if any of my plants are still alive.

Or have they spoiled too.

I need to go jogging in the morning-

It’s good for my heart.
I'm not getting any younger

They say 1 in 2 blacks will be diabetic by adulthood.

That growth is coming back, under my bottom lip.

The urgent care doctor is pricey without insurance.

I better sit down for a moment,

catch my breath,

I need to use the bathroom,

And I better turn the A/C off

I'm just getting over this cold; this cold,

that has lasted longer than I expected

Did he hold on to that cardigan?

I wonder if he still writes poetry

Does he think of me?

Where did I put my wallet?

I know it was just here.

I hope I didn't let it go...

I’ve been working on my credit score and

the last thing I need is credit fraud.

I’ve been defrauded enough it seems,

I’ve been working on fixing that.

That and the forgetting.

I read his dog died...

I felt bad but I can’t reach out...

besides what hasnt already been said?

It’s such a pity

I've let him go

   It's the forgetting that I'm having trouble with.