Untitled

I don’t wanna loose you but…
It isn’t that we’ve grown apart
I just needed this more than you did
I was always upfront with my regards
Maybe you don’t have the energy to see me through this.
Now I want to make my suffering an art
And you its student.
I should have seen this from the start
For a boy so bright I sure am clueless.
I want to cloud your mind
With thoughts of my smile
And stream endless longing into your skies
Iike the gases from those jumbo jets
That you insist will materialize.
Can you bear to feel the acid?
That drips on me at night
All the shame my glands secrete
As you break me down
to make yourself come out right.
I want you to trust in me
Just meet me eye to eye
You know I can’t be resisted
So why put up the futile fight?

Upon Loosing Rolf

In this hallowed chest
Where sand and ash
coerce my heart
causing arteries to clash
With jagged teeth
To tear away
The delicate fabric
I have begged to stay
I roam about
With unraveled seams
Looking for you
To sew me anew
And make a man
Out of me

Where the wind is a wisp
of salt and grit
that smells of sulfur
From too many regrets
This soul looks out
But where to beget?
With no windows
To let the daylight clear
What my emotion clouds
and inner-darkness rears.

In my bed
of sights unseen
There lies the lesson
That grief does sing;
A siren’s song
That calls out to me
And I follow suit
With clairvoyant brevity.

untitled I wrote when I was 15

because of the secrets
I have held
144,000 lost chances
to go to heaven
and not to hell
trapped in the jail cell
of guilt and pain
I fell I dont meet
the daily requirements
for whats real...
Nigga!
Do you get the deal?
these secrets and lies
break families
and ties
but it feels better
to have ignorant bliss
than suffer the ethics
of the wise
Blood over water
through thick
and through thin
living by traditions
that i dont understand
is my only true sin
Still time wears on
so we do what we must
before the race is over
and my life
turns to dust.

Le Bonne

I see you
Before you see me.
A brown-skin stranger-
A Sahara’s evening
with a breeze.
I am imposing
I hold intrigue,
I am exotic
Yet easy to appease;
Like being on safari
When the leopard
Looks up
From the watering hole
to see me perched
in some gnarly tree
gazing down
into his being
And our eyes meet
to form a seam
that starts with you
and ends with me.
While we play
in Serengeti heat
And the Katydid sings;
Tribal chants
To be whisked away
On amber winds
And hallowed reeds
To bemuse a tempest
inner beast
scratching at my surface,
longing to roam free.
Do you care to migrate
toward my reciprocity?

When I walked in

You were wearing
my favorite color
It’s the same hue
As my Pop’s car
When I was a kid-
Carnival glass
Sea foam
The color of optimism
When times were simpler.
Where clouds were cumulous
And the sky was iridescent
A mermaids tail
Swimming above me
Promising candy
if to a child.
Nostalgic,
I see better times
Through you.

Feel like me.

I want your chest to become tight when I don’t answer
And your legs to fail you when you think I am in danger
Your back should ache when you think of my burdens
And your patience should be thin
When you know how long I have been waiting.