Thoughts Before Making a Bad Decision

Its soaking wet,
got to ring it out
bring it out
Its like collecting debt
always feeling down,
getting the run around
a sea of lonely regrets.
Got a lovers heart
but no other's heart
want someone
to put me to the test.

So, I'll head out
pushing through the crowd
I know we haven't met
trying to figure out
this underground
love is a game of chess
so its got me down
which move now?
In love with sin,
my God I must confess.
all this running round
to figure it out
its something
I can't digest.

All these words I spout
when filled with doubt
at home with emptiness .
I want another's heart
but where to start
I've created such a mess
Should I light it up
watch and puff
will it help with all the stress?
Got to ring it out,
my heart is soaking wet.

Say your prayers.

‘I’ve been praying for you’
As if it would absolve everything
And provide some clarity.
He must be different now:
must be better
bigger, less unsteady.

 so I should take note
I’ve been prayed for.

and now the sun shines in my favor
and the adversity I call breathing,
is no longer labored.
So now I can stop biting my nails,
&can stop drinking in secret.
Because his prayer has changed things.

When I was a child,
I prayed for the damned-
And surely it made them better
Because autonomy is a gift,
that the righteous man bears.
The way to the light is through the righteous.
The meek shall inherit the earth.

I’ve been praying for you
Translates to:
I cannot come to terms
With what has happened.
And cannot admit I still love you.
So I will blame the divine
& use it as an excuse to never get over you.

Say your prayers.

‘I’ve been praying for you’
As if it would absolve everything
And provide some clarity.
He must be different now:
must be better
bigger, less unsteady.

 so I should take note
I’ve been prayed for.

and now the sun shines in my favor
and the adversity I call breathing,
is no longer labored.
So now I can stop biting my nails,
&can stop drinking in secret.
Because his prayer has changed things.

When I was a child,
I prayed for the damned-
And surely it made them better
Because autonomy is a gift,
that the righteous man bears.
The way to the light is through the righteous.
The meek shall inherit the earth.

I’ve been praying for you
Translates to:
I cannot come to terms
With what has happened.
And cannot admit I still love you.
So I will blame the divine
& use it as an excuse to never get over you.