get the message

You read this,
&it sinks in
&it settles down deep
Or maybe it sits on your mind
Like every moment
Of every day rests on my shoulders
&I know I’m alive
Because I’m not at rest.
& it’s not really living
When you aren’t here.
&I wish you’d read this
& realize it’s about u;
That I have been
All about u,
Even without u.
That we can never be
Just what you mean to me
Since I can never be
What I mean to be.
And maybe you will
Overlook my mess
And see the message
The message
The message that sinks in
As it settles down deep
And I hope you don’t mind
Like I mind every moment
Of every day that rests on my shoulders.
While I remain alive
& appear above rest
Since I’m not really living
When you aren’t here.
The thought sinks in…
&I’m never settled,
least not down deep.
So it sits on my mind
Like every shared moment
Of our everyday.
&all I can hope
Is that u will read this
&it sinks in
Once you’ve settled down,
Or that it
at least crosses your mind
&u forgive the mess,
&get the message